Drum

Getting back behind a kit after my ridiculously brutal meltdown has been a good idea….a very good idea.

At the moment I’m currently stepping in to drum for a friends band whilst their full time drummer is out of the country.

I love doing it. It’s been a while since I’ve played on a regular basis and honestly, it’s doing me the world of good.

I think that hitting drums was my coping mechanism, how I managed to deal with the flurry of emotions that are always raging in my brain. It makes sense in a way as I’ve been hitting skins since I was 17 and always feel at peace when I’m sat at that drum throne. It’s like controlled fury, but not in an angry way, it’s more like that feeling you get when you’re next to someone you love on a picturesque summers day.

Drumming is one of the only times when my brain just stops and I don’t think about anything. I don’t think about the beats I’m playing, the world or the heartbreak that weighs me down.

There is of course a massive drawback to this.

Shows.

Shows can be an anxiety driven mess for me, I start to become anxious during the build up and waiting to go on stage. It doesn’t help that I’ll be playing a show on the 16th of Feb in New Cross….which is a place not too far from someone who was very special to me.

I’m fine when I get on stage, when I sit behind the barrier of drums and start to go. I just know that new cross…that’s going to be a tough one. But I’ll be fine. I’ll get through it as after all, it’s good to be back where I belong.

And hell do I belong behind a kit.

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